Rusty
I am out of practice and eager to produce results that resemble where I left off. But, I’m not in a familiar rhythm and feeling very rusty. Where do I start? How much effort will it take? 54321… Go!
Thank you motivational speaker and author, Mel Robbins for moving me from thought into action! It’s time for me to re-emerge and share my thoughts, actions and inspirations again more broadly. It is time for me to CHOOSE COURAGE!
Done is better than perfect… I continue to tell myself. So yes, my perfectly imperfect journal entry is here in all of its glory.
Almost exactly one year ago my family bravely trusted me as I gently uprooted our lives in Portland, Oregon and transplanted us 3 hours away to Bend, Oregon. Navigating life in the middle of a pandemic with two school-age children did not seem like the obvious best timing for a big transitional move, but then again is there ever a right time?!
Putting aside the voices, I decided to get really cozy (and messy) with my gut. Sometimes it’s just a feeling and if you take too long to try and understand the feeling, the opportunity for action disappears. So, I had a feeling. It was a feeling that had settled itself in my gut the day that I left mountain living nearly 20 years ago. The seed had been planted in Breckenridge, CO in the late 90’s where I had my first taste as a local living in a mountain town. Life happened and I became a city girl, doing all the things I wanted to do like getting married, having babies, exploring and expanding career and building community. And for each of those city living years, that “feeling” remained. I knew, someday I would grow that seed and make it back to living in the mountains, but I had assumed that time would be many years away, when my children went off to college and somehow it made sense to move back into the mountains.
Enter the COVID-19 pandemic. A devastating and completely transformative period of time for everyone. Through this forced global slow down I reconnected with possibilities. I began to day dream, to reimagine what our day-to-day life could look like. I had a feeling that our most fully lived life was waiting for us in a place that offered easy access to outdoor adventure and an active lifestyle, great schools and more sunshine to improve our overall mental and physical well-being.
I’m happy to share the details of what transpired between October 2021 and April 2022 at a later time, but what I want to share right now is this…
SOMEDAY IS TODAY!
There is no right time to take action on cravings or longings. There is no perfect moment to taking a step towards a dream. There is only the moment that you choose to take the action and the attitude that you choose to embrace from those decisions. After all, attitude is the difference between an ordeal and an adventure.
Although our whole family has adjusted beautifully to our new surroundings, I certainly don’t want the reader to assume there have not been challenges. We miss friends and family tremendously and there have been plenty of messy moments. But I do believe messy is its own version of beautiful.
Now that I have started writing again I can feel the floodgates opening… It’s been along time since I have put my thoughts on “paper” but so far, it feels good. So, with no idea where this is going or what direction I will step towards next, I finish this journal entry with the feeling of relief that I have once again crossed the start line of a writing adventure that is important to me. As “my friend” Adriene Mishler says, getting to the mat is the hardest part of any yoga practice. With this blog I have returned to my mat. Thank you for supporting my return by reading and commenting. So, what will you start today?